Friday, June 30, 2006
I AM NOT MYSELF TODAY. I FEEL SO PISSED(not with anyone)
My parents just lectured me AGAIN. I feel as if I can't seem to do anything. Everything looks like it is not right, not the way I expected it to be. Maybe God wants me to change, He wants a different lifestyle for me. I need an attitude adjustment. There is something deep down inside me that doesn't want to come out. I feel so trapped, so insecure, so not myself.
Sometimes when I am blogging, I can cry when typing on the keyboard. All those unpleasant happenings, every little memory, each single moment of happiness, are all stuck inside my head. Happy stuff, it is possible for me to forget it. Not happy stuff, it so happens that I can recall and imagine myself during that point of unhappiness. It is SO hard to throw away all bad things. It is so easy to forget good things. I don't like the feeling of being hated. Especially by someone that had once loved you the most.
What a thing can love be. Being loved just feels so nice, so...
{/PERHAPS LOVE <3 ;
;DD 7:34 PM
