Thursday, May 11, 2006
yay!! i finally updated my blog!! haha. i suck at life science. got 40/60, so sucky. my mum indirectly told me that why cant i be smarter?? i know that im stoopid... dont need to emphasise on that. i know im useless. i cant seem to get anything right. i cant please you in anyway. even though im doing the best i can, you still wont be satisfied at me. i know you think that im fat, useless and stoopid. i will just accept my fate of being fat useless and stoopid. coz there is nth i can do to make u think otherwise. i will forever be like this in your eyes. nth i can do to change you, nth i can do to prove you wrong. nth at all. HATE MYSELF!!i dont wanna be here anymore. i feel like ive just been thrown away, i feel like everybody has stepped on me.
TO MUM:
i know you feel very disappointed in me. i know you think that i cant do anyhting right. my studies suck, my swimming sucks even more. i dont think you know anything abt squash. its ok for yoyu ignore me since you already have ALYSSA. she is like so much BETTER than me. but i dont really care. i will just carry on living my life like this. hate me all you like. coz there is nothing i do that satisfies you.
{/PERHAPS LOVE <3 ;
;DD 6:38 PM
