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2007-08-12T21:11:00.000+08:00

MOVED
http://xanga.com/lienieledam
<3

2007-03-07T21:39:00.000+08:00

REVIVE

haha. how long havent i came here? gosh

i lost, but it's ok. i still have another week to try. i will prove my worth at that time. just watch.

2007-02-17T16:44:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
anyway, i have decided to post on xanga instead of blogger. but i wont delete this blog. i will still come here to post maybe once in 5-6 days.

out

2007-02-15T18:15:00.000+08:00

XANGA IS MY NEW FOUND FRIEND.

http://xanga.com/lienieledam
please link/subscribe to me.
it's not really done yet cause i havent put the tagboard in. will update both blogger and xanga.

HAPPY V DAY!

2007-02-13T12:18:00.000+08:00

i'm in the com lab now. supposed to be doing english ppt but i have done my part so i have nothing to do now.
lydia gave me a shock yesterday. she sent me an sms that says:
sorry to inform you but i am going to japan this weds and might not return forever.

i have just been elected as their empress.

like it's so diaox. haha. she gave me a huge scare but i ended up laughing in the end. and belicia is never going to return my step up dvd and soundtrack. sheesh. and she is supposed to lend me fall out boy's new album. FOB ROCKS! haha. and she is going to their concert.

anyways, my birthday is coming soon! like in 3 weeks. is that soon? haha. maybe not. its on a monday. so that means i have training. but nvm, training is fun. haha.
i'm so bored now. grrr... life science and chinese test tmrw. AND VALENTINE'S DAY! not that i'm making it a big event cause i dont really celebrate it.

out

2007-02-08T20:12:00.000+08:00

I'm back to update. At the request of a few people.

YESTERDAY

yating scared lydia AGAIN. haha. i was there when she did it. but i gave it away. stupid me. lydia thought that yating was tao-ing her. but she isn't
then about hannah. i guess you all know what happened to her. it was kinda obvious(for ppl in 2H).
TODAY

im doing the chp 10 of to kill a mockingbird now. so irritating. but art is even worse. luckily it wasn't due today. if not i would just fail. and kym, don't laugh for something like that(you know what i'm talking about)
i know i dont update frequently. it's because i dont have the time to use the com.
and belicia, if you see this, please send me the song. and tell me how to use xanga music sites. and DONT USE YOUR SLOW INTERNET CONNECTION.

2007-02-07T20:34:00.000+08:00

I HATE ART

IT IS SO FRUSTRATING

2007-01-30T18:03:00.000+08:00

Since Louise said my blog is dying, i shall update. but the problem is i don't know what to update about. nothing much happened recently. studying for the upcoming chem test now. so bored. and i need new songs. my library if songs is getting boring. I WANT THE YOUTH ALIVE CD "SHOUT YOUR GLORY" does anyone have it? if yes, please lend me! and does anyone have the song "HERE (IN YOUR ARMS) by HELLOGOODBYE? PLEASE send me if u have it. mp3 format preferable

i really don't know what to blog about. so.. i shall stop here today.
and my sis is going to PERTH. lucky her. i haven't been out of asia for a LONG time. but she is going there for competition. so it's not really a holiday

i miss you quite terribly

2007-01-26T08:19:00.000+08:00

i'm finally updating

haha. i'm at the com lab now

hate this keyboard. so hard and it feels really funny

i think i should update more often

i will link u soon megan

byebye

2007-01-20T15:42:00.000+08:00

another week has passed

i got my retainers. and it is so uncomfortable. have to get used to it no matter what, i don't want to lose it again, if not my parents will start to think i'm an idiot again. but anyway, they will always think i'm one. so it doesn't really matter, i'm already used to all the insults and ridicules. so another one won't make a big difference.
i need to prove to them that i'm not what they think i am.
i need to show my real self
i'm not a loser
i won't let them think i am.

everything is driving me crazy
i'm not in top 7
that's bad enough
_______ is getting on my nerves

i'll be back to thrash all of u

2007-01-15T21:19:00.000+08:00

after so long, i'm finally posting.

haha. doing pw and home e now. can't find the stuff needed for home e. trying to find something relevant so that i can print it out.

mg vs st nics tmrw for the arena.
anyone watching?

2007-01-11T21:20:00.000+08:00

IT'S HANNAH LEE HUI NI'S BIRTHDAY TMRW!! haha. i can't believe she is turning 14 so soon. she doesn't look 14. she still looks like a p5. hmm.. that means she is young? haha. she looks like one but doesn't think like one. and i don't think she will ever change. but i'm waiting for a miracle to happen! the miracle is that she will not be tomboy anymore! miracles do happen. depends when though.
hope me and lydia would be able to buy her birthday present this sunday. hope i can make it. but i doubt i will. sorry lydia! u will have to go buy it on your own! me, louise and hsi-en will chip in though.
tests and tests will be coming. homework and more homework. grrrrrr. i wonder how many sec1s will be accepted into the team this year. but so sad, they would have to do physical for 6 months, i think, unless the duration changes. but it's ok. me, rachel, elena, su-lin, gloria, kelly and wanning have gone through it. KLARISSA DIDN'T. but she is like super pro. :)

okay, i'm stopping here for today. quite a long post compared to the last few. haha. post next time!

2007-01-08T21:16:00.000+08:00

IM SO TIRED

i havent been updating. :(

2nd week of school
playoffs aren't going that well. it isn't what i expected it to be. trying my best to get into top 5. if not top 7 would be good enough.

off to do hw

2007-01-04T20:17:00.000+08:00

school started.

nothing much happened. but elena's chinese teacher thought she was malay. then she went to cancel her name from the list. hahahahhaa. then she kept on asking what was her chinese name. ask how come it is tangtra and not tang-tra. lol. she must be really blur. no wonder almost everyone doesn't like her.

im really tired.
blog next time.

2007-01-01T11:37:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

down with a cough now. damn it. hate falling sick.

here are the pics

the twin towers. my sis's phone camera is better than the digi cam

the island

i dont know what is this

the potato grouper. IT'S SUPER BIG. who would want to eat that?

the water fountain.

post more next time. mosquitoes are biting me now.

2006-12-31T18:22:00.000+08:00

FINALLY CAME BACK FROM KL AND PENANG

it was fun. but the car trip there was LONG. i ended up having a backache.

will update tomorrow.

replies to tags

belicia: MERRY X'MAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!
kenna: HELLO!! miss ya loads. haha. just came back from kl and penang. i will remember everything u told me! i'll try! :) haha. spend your 4 days left of hols well! see ya in school!
ziwei: haha. will relink!
bernice: scared of?
laura: sorry but i only have one class photo. will relink u soon.

2006-12-22T12:12:00.000+08:00

it's been raining like crazy these few days. gosh.
went to church to paint the banner yesterday. guys seriously suck at designing. got a bit fed up with them. they screwed up the sign board and i had to edit it. they can't even write straight.
finally finished my holiday hw! now i need not worry about anything.
mum is coming back from indonesia tomorrow. i bet she wants to stay there longer.
going to KL and penang in 4 days!! it's like every year i go there. but somehow i don't get bored of it.

school is starting soon. have to get a new geog workbook. the one that ren jean gave me is missing of 3 chapters. she tore it out.
i haven't read finish to kill a mocking bird yet! still owe my tuition teacher dunno how many newspaper article reviews. and i have yet to do the book review. grrrr.

i fell in love, in love, with you suddenly

2006-12-20T22:35:00.000+08:00

back to post!

went for acsi friendly. belicia came, just because she wanted a hellokitty chocalate. the courts are FREEZING. the air con is SUPER COLD. even the ball can't be hot. and if you hit hard, it will only go half court. so we had to hit high and hard. haha. even my racket condensed. went it to play game. then went out. my racket got wet. and my visors were all foggy. but it seemed more tiring then playing in a normal-no-air-con court. dunno why.

and the toilets there doesn't have any tissue paper and dustbin. although it is HUGE. nearly the size of a classroom.
watched jillian's game. so noisy. she was arguing with the referee. the referee is seriously lousy. the ball already bounced twice and he nearly gave the guy a stroke/let(i can't remember). duh jillian argued. haha. bad experience with the courts.

then went to church for x'mas carnival meeting. missed my 9 o'clock show. but i can still watch the repeat tmrw! haha. finally decided on everything! have to set up the stall tmrw. so i have to go back to church again.

anyone free on the 23rd?
FAITH METHODIST CHURCH IS HOLDING A CHRISTMAS CARNIVAL.
11 AM TO 4 PM

PLEASE COME IF YOU ARE FREE!

2006-12-18T12:51:00.000+08:00

40 ppl in random order( maybe only number one isnt((: )
1. clare
2. steffi
3. elena
4. lydia
5. kenna
6. hannah
7. claire
8. e shyen
9. fiona
10. rachel choe
11. wanning
12. gloria
13. pammy
14. jillian
15. joash
16. sherlynn
17. fernando
18. warren
19. emily
20. wan yi
21. amanda
22. zhao yang
23. debbie
24. stephanie
25. alyssa
26. adele
27. nigel lim
28. nigel vb
29. alex lee
30. bryan tay
31. amanda chew
32. vannesa
33. sheryl
34. jiao lian
35. miss chan
36. caleb
37. yoan
38. sherwin
39. amelea
40. joel

questions:
who is 9 to u?
(fiona) good fren

does 12 have a hot older bro?
(gloria) nope, she has a nerdy sister

wld u make out with 2?
(steffi) NO WAY! im not les

wad abt 13?
(pammy) hmm.. NOO. im not les

or 30?
(bryan tay) NO WAY

is 1 ur best fren?
(clare) my good fren! haha.

is 3 cute?
(elena) err. dunno

how abt 5?
(kenna) her innocent face is! haha

or 23?
(debbie) dunno

or 36?
(caleb) NO

how did u meet 4?
(lydia) class mate!

7?
(claire) class mate!

18?
(warren) squash fren! he's a cute little boy! haha

did u ever go out with 20?
(wanyi) nope.

or 28?
(nigel vb) i dont ever want to. my sis did and she had a bad time

who is 40?
(joel) pro swimmer, smart? i heard that from aunty cynthia. *hint hint to lydia*

do u hug 8 all e time?
(e shyen) no

how abt 15?
(joash) ewww. he's a nice guy though.haha.

or 25?
(alyssa) she is my sis

or 37?
(yoan) cousin! i guess she only wants to hug ________

have u ever told 14 u loved him/her?
(jillian) she's my senior! haha. pro squashie

wld 6 and 10 make a good couple
(hannah and rachel choe) NO WAY

wad abt 16 and 28?
(sherlynn and nigel vb) that would be interesting. haha

17 and 22?
(fernando and zhao yang) NOPE. gay?

24 and 32?
(stephanie and vannesa) they dont know each other and they are not les

33 and 39?
(sheryl and amelea) NO WAY

are 38 and 37 best frens?
(yoan and sherwin) they dont know each other

does 34 drink coffee 24/7?
(jiao lian) in the mornings

wad is 9 addicted to?
(fiona) i dont know?

how abt 16?
(sherlynn) animae, her hp, tv

or 27?

(nigel lim) man utd and swimming.

damn quiz. so long

2006-12-17T20:34:00.000+08:00

i feel like hitting myself into the wall

i nearly lost my phone. lucky it was in the car. GOD SAVED MY LIFE. i dont want to loose things again. if not no one will trust me.

scared me out of my wits

2006-12-15T13:55:00.000+08:00

LAST DAY OF TRAINING!!

today was kinda slack. haha. didnt do any physical.
friendly with ACSI next weds.
it's just so unfair. they have FIVE courts with AIR CON and THREE abandoned courts. so in total, they have EIGHT courts. that's TWICE of what mg has.

ZHIJING IS AN UNDERAGE GRANDMA!! haha. she really nags alot. and she is sadist too. i think mr koh spread the disease to her. and she is so NOT lady like. like as if she can ______(i think only pammy, yiling, elena and yixuan knows the word in this blank)

anyone got nice songs? can msn me at madeleine1993@hotmail.com. i need some new songs. sick of listening to the same old ones.

claire-look at her hair. haha.

what kind of pose is this?

2006-12-11T14:57:00.000+08:00

i haven't posted for like 4 days. haha. updateupdate

yesterday

after cg, went back home. then 30 minutes later, i went out again.
i went to a concert. well, it doesn't seem like one. it was like held in a bar. it was like 5 HOURS. omg. me and claire were like.. err. the youngest there? hmm.. maybe. it was quite nice. reached home at about 11pm++

today

went for training. there were only 3 of us. me, elena and rachel. two hours later, wanning came to join us. she had tennis from 8 to 10.
after warm up, we did this super tiring drill. SUPER TIRING. wanning skipped the whole of it. lucky her. then we did court sprints. SUPER TIRING. haha. everything seems tiring. that's the whole point actually.

mum has gone back to indonesia for like 2 weeks. i have to do the ironing for 2 weeks. grr. and the dishes and.. most of the chores? dunno. maybe dad will be hardworking enough to mop the house.
and you know what? now i have 3 calculators. i recently bought another one cause my tuition teacher said that one is better. i dont know why. and i just changed the battery of another one yesterday, and the other one came from my dad's office. he said he found it in the lecture hall and it was working so he took it back.
i wonder what i can do with 3 calculators.

going to watch tv now

2006-12-07T22:06:00.000+08:00

my com has been lagging... grrr

sorry for not updating. been watching tv. i wonder when i am going to do the holiday hw.

yesterday

there were only three of us during trng, me, rachel and wanning. then mr koh make us do drill. super tiring.

i'm bored. again. need to do holiday hw soon. when should i do it? maybe next week. still have to read chinese book and do some zhou ji thing. and the paper that the teacher gave it all crumpled up. have to iron it. JUST KIDDIN'.

miss apsc/red and white

2006-12-04T16:29:00.000+08:00

its been so long since i posted. too lazy

amer pro competition tomorrow. i just started training today. stupid knee injury. grrrr

and if anyone is free on the 23rd of dec, pls come to FAITH METHODIST CHURCH(next to commenwealth mrt station), 11am to 6pm for christmas carnival! it's something like a funfair.

2006-11-29T15:47:00.000+08:00

MY 100th POST!!

went to arena warehouse sale today. i got 5 shorts!! haha. it was SUPER crowded. queued for like 2 hours. around there. met junhan, audrey, aloysius and... other ppl. practically all the swimmers. i wanted to get a long sleeve shirt but there wasn't any :(

im so bored now. reading next year's lit book. got nth to do. even if i maple, i can't level up that fast. and i still have to think of what game stall we should set up during the christmas carnival.

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BORED!

2006-11-27T22:27:00.000+08:00

MY 99th POST! ONE MORE!

today.

finally finished clearing up my room. threw away my primary school stuff. re-arranged all the worksheets. super tiring. but my room didn't get any neater.

went to westmall after buying books from school and passing the mc to the teacher-in-charge. ate moss burger<3
Gloria still doesn't know how to pronounce Y-A-K-I-N-I-K-U(SP?) haha. went walking around after eating to wait for the rain to stop. but in the end, when we went out, it was still raining. -_-". got a little drenched.

yesterday.

Clare didn't come. She went for holiday.
But we(Steffi, Rachel, Puiting and me) have a surprise for her!! haha. damn funny. I shall keep the suspense till thursday. i hope i kept the piece of paper with me.

after cg, the CGLs(3 of them) announced that i am IC during the christmas carnival [IC= In Charge], together with 3 other ppl. cheryl and 2 guys. I STILL DON'T KNOW THEIR NAMES. my reaction----> -_-"
i don't even know i would be going on that day(23rd dec). but i would be free. grrr. that means i have to go.

we'll carry on.

2006-11-24T09:55:00.000+08:00

i cant take this sometimes.

my sis is appealing for RGS. its not that i dont agree. but as an MGSian, i would, of course, want her to go to MG. damn you ruggers. why does everyone want to go there?

last year, i DESPERATELY wanted to get out of MG because i REALLY REALLY REALLY HATED my form teacher(6.6). she really sucks. i still remembered that i went against her for every little thing. yes, i was very, very rebellious. i dont know what was the reason that my PSLE results is sooooo......... bad. 241. that sucks. that kind of results is not supposed to be from an EM1 student. GRRRRRRRRRRR.........

but the main reason why RGS didnt accept me because my swimming sucks. i guess they only care about SWIMMING.

2006-11-23T20:55:00.000+08:00

Step Up- Samantha Jade
(From the movie Step Up)

Step Step Step Up)
This is somethin for the radio
(Step Step Step Up)
This is somethin for the radio
(Step Step Step Up)
This is somethin for the radio
(Step Step Step Up)

[Chorus]
Boy, no matter what we go through
You step up I'll step up too
It don't matter what the haters say
As long as you are my boo
And no matter how hard it gets
This love will have no regrets
As long as when we steppin on the dancefloor
It's me and you

Feel the rhythm of the beat, that's my heart
Cupid shot me with the arrow from the start
And you know that it's your love that's got me trapped
Everytime I try to leave you bring me back
So much water at times I cried a river
You dried my eyes and brought me back to laughter
And when I lay next to you I wanna wake up
And when I break up it's only to make up

[Chorus]

And when I step any place, I feel my feet
Lifting from underneath
You grab my hands, spin me round
And right before I fall
You catch me and you say
Baby, it'll be okay
Just look into my eyes
And we will make another day

[Chorus]

And If we don't step up we'll loose our groove
So confused don't know which way to move
Pull my hand and let me know that you feel me too
Look into my eyes and tell me baby I love you
You'll never get wet cuz I'll be your umbrella
And we can make it through any kind of weather
If you step up I'll step up boy
Cuz I'm tryin to be with you forever

[Chorus]x2

Step Up
This is somethin for the radio
(Step Step Step Up)
This is somethin for the radio
This is somethin for the radio
(Step Step Step Up)

[Chorus]

2006-11-21T18:17:00.000+08:00

KONAYUKI-(powdered snow)
REMIOROMEN

konayuki, mau kisetsu wa
itsumo surechigai
hitogomi ni magiretemo
onaji sora miteru no ni

kaze ni fukarete
nita you ni kogoeru no ni

boku wa kimi no subete nado
shitte wa inai darou
soredemo ichiokunin kara
kimi wo mitsuketa yo

konkyo wa nai kedo
honki de omotterun da

sasai na iiai mo nakute wararai,
wararaionaji jikan wo ikite nado ikenai
sunao ni narenai nara
yorokobi mo kanashimi mo munashii dake

konayuki nee kokoro made shiroku somerareta nara
futari no kodoku wo wake au koto ga dekita no kai

boku wa kimi no kokoro ni, mimi wo oshiatete
sono koe no suru hou e sutto fukaku made
orite yukitai, soko de mou ichido aou

wakariaitai nante morarai,
moraraiuwabe wo nadete ita no wa boku no hou
kimi no kajikanda te mo
nigirishimeru koto dake de tsunagatteta no ni

konayuki nee eien wo mae ni amari ni moroku
zaratsuku ASUFARUTO no ue shimi ni natte yuku yo

konayuki nee toki ni tayorinaku kokoro wa yureru
soredemo boku wa kimi no koto mamoritsudzuketai…

konayuki nee kokoro made shiroku somerareta nara
futari no kodoku wo tsutsume sora ni kaesu kara…

ENGLISH TRANSLATION
powdered-snow, within the revolving seasons
we always miss each other [1]
although we got separated within the crowd,
we look into the same sky

blown in the wind,
we feel the same chills

everything about you, [2]
guess I don't really know
even so, from one hundred million
I still found you [3]

although i'm not really sure, [4]
i'm seriously thinking about it

if slight quarrels may lose our laughters
then we must not live in the same moment of time
if we can't be honest to each other [5]
happiness and sadness are just empty

powdered-snow, until our hearts become white-dyed
let us meet so that we can share our loneliness

want to put my ears into your heart
to hear the voice that gently leads into the depth
i want to go descend, and let us meet once again there

although I say that I want to understand,
but I can only stroke the surface of my words
even your hands that have become cold,
only by holding them tightly, we were connected

powdered-snow, even too fragile before the eternity
fell and became stain upon the rough asphalt

powdered-snow, in such time unreliable, shaking my heart
even so, I want to keep on protecting you…

powdered-snow, until our hearts become white-dyed
wrap up our loneliness, return it to the sky…

2006-11-20T21:42:00.000+08:00

after watching one litre of tears(jap drama serial, based on a true story), i felt very touched. Aya(the girl who got the disease, protagonist), even though she could hardly do anything anymore, she still fought on. She still wrote down her feelings on her diary everyday. And that diary was published. Those people who read it..

aiyah, i wont say anything anymore. go watch the drama serial yourself on youtube. it is very nice. ALL THANKS TO GLORIA I GOT SOMETHING NICE TO WATCH.

I'm bored. Got anything nice to watch?

2006-11-19T21:00:00.000+08:00

i watched step up today!! its so cool!

hmm.. do u like my new blogskin?

nth much today

i won 20 dollar heeren voucher! from move it!

move it is like a huge board game. it was FUNNNN. but our grp always got the sports activity.

and we were so paranoid over the exchange rate thing. precious stones and gold. haha. i don't think u know what i am talking about. :)

every second chance begins with a first step

2006-11-18T20:46:00.000+08:00

GOING TO CHANGE BLOGSKIN SOON.

WILL UPDATE AGAIN.

MOVE IT!

2006-11-16T20:29:00.000+08:00

THE MADELEINE THAT YOU KNOW DIED TODAY.

今天，你们都知道的李玉华，已经死了。

2006-11-14T13:24:00.000+08:00

i decided not to think so much on that issue that has made me worry.

i'll just leave everything to God. He will decide for me.

now.. lets get back to the thing i wanted to say.

I WATCHED FINISH PRINCESS HOURS!!
it rocks.

wait. that means i got nothing to watch anymore. no more drama serials to watch anymore. grrr.

princess hours is something like fullhouse. quite alike.

BORED

2006-11-10T20:26:00.000+08:00

i feel like crying

i've been praying and praying.

i don't like swimming anymore but i miss my friends. those friends of mine, they cheered me up whenever i'm down. they helped me persevere on, not to give up, but to always continue on no matter what. it's just so sad that i made them disappointed, all of them. not only those from my club, but also my rivals, and my friends from other clubs.

but i had a choice to make. last year, i was already on the edge of giving up. i did it. i gave up this year. i had reasons to giving up. but somehow, my parents, until now, are against it. i don't know why they just cannot support my decision. even mrs elaine chan doesn't allow me. everyone doesn't allow me.

however, i don't regret making that decision. even though i have become fatter, i like being a squashie.

p.s. mum and dad, i don't believe that ONLY swimming can help me lose weight. and don't try talking to people so that they can persuade me to go back swimming. it won't work

2006-11-08T19:50:00.000+08:00

I can't believe this is happening.

I think I'm going to break down soon.

My fatness seems to make me very detestable in my family.

Maybe because my dad, my mum and my sister are all skinny.

Which makes me not part of it.

I am the odd one out.

But there is nothing I can do.

It takes me years to lose 1kg.

Let alone bring down my weight to 55kg.

welcome to my life

2006-11-07T20:26:00.000+08:00

Have you had a feeling when nothing seems rite? Had you had this thought that sometimes you wish you weren't born? I had.

Everyday that I live in this world, there would always be someone telling me that I am fat, my thighs are big, the sight of me is just very horrible blahblahblah. All the hurtful stuff just comes right into my face. If my dad doesn't tell me about my fatness, then my mum would, and vice versa. It is just so irritating.

My mum either cares about getting rich everyday or telling me that my room is very messy or telling me that my thighs are the hugest or tells me that I am the weirdest person that she has ever met blahblahblah. I don't see why money can be so important to her. She believes that money can bring happiness and anything she wants. And my room CANNOT get any neater. I would not let her neat my room for a reason. When she neats up my room, she will always throw away anything that looks like junk to her(and this refers to everything), and she will read my CONFIDENTIAL diary. Diaries are meant to be a secret excuse me. By the way, she read all my letters that me and my friends write to each other before. That is the reason why I carry my diary and all my letters everywhere I go now. So troublesome.

And my dad, he would never support me in squash. He keeps on telling me to either go back to swimming or take up tennis.

NUMBER ONE. I WOULD NEVER SWIM AGAIN AND I DON'T EVER WANT TO.
NUMBER TWO. I DON'T WANT TO TAKE TENNIS COMPETITIVELY

SHEESH

Oh yah, by the way, he also tells me that I am fat EVERY DAY.

horrible, terrible and vegetable

2006-11-06T21:03:00.000+08:00

im bored. again. i started re-reading all my books. got nothing to do. well, there is chinese and math homework. but i feel so lazy to do it. wait till december then i start doing. haha

1H 06, 2D 07

2006-11-02T21:16:00.000+08:00

i went to cut my hair today! there isnt really a big difference but it is now shorter and more layered. haha. training tmrw. hope i can try and improve my 2.4km run time if we are running. my body is all sore. grrr. but it is worth the effort.

im so bored now. what should i do? hmmm... i feel so lazy.

2006-10-30T18:50:00.000+08:00

trng today kinda sucked

2.4 km run, drop-drive drill, the usual physical, C-div captain voting blablabla

as usual, during the drop-drive drill, my knee collapsed. lucky it was okay during the run. i wonder whether my parents will support me for squash. You know they always say that squash is a dead sport and always think that only me and elena are in the team. WTF. i can't help saying that but it is REALLY annoying. IS THERE ANYTHING WRONG WITH SQUASH?

my parents are always saying that squash is the cause to my fatness and my big butt and my big thighs and my big arms etc. Everything on me is big. I know that. They would be happy if I looked like a skeleton. All bones and NOTHING else. I don't see the mistake in being fat. Everyone is special. It doesn't mean that I have to be as slim and slender as a model. Or as skinny as my sister. I don't aim to look like one of them. I just want to be myself. We are all GOD's children. And he loves us for who we are. Well, at least I know that there's someone that appreciates me. GOD and my close friends.

SOME FRIENDS DON'T HELP, BUT A TRUE FRIEND IS CLOSER THAN YOUR OWN FAMILY

PROVERBS 18:24

2006-10-27T21:45:00.000+08:00

some more pics

MGSQUASH TEAM 06!

SPARK C CAMP 03!

dont ask. TEACHERS' DAY

2006-10-26T20:37:00.000+08:00

some pics

claire asked me to take this

we were playing truth or dare. CAREBEAR POSE

at KAP

after the funfair. WE BRAIDED OUR HAIR! can't see mine though

random shot

will post some more tmrw

2006-10-25T14:18:00.000+08:00

found this on the net dedicated to HANNAH LEE

Hanna Lee
You dusty eyes were soft and glowin'
when first I met you, Hannah Lee.
There was no way for me a-knowin'
the sorrow your sweet caress would bring to me.
Chorus:High, high, high is the gallows.
(Yeah, and it's long) long as the rope that waits for me.
High as the gallows. They'll hang me for your sins, my Hannah Lee.
You shot and killed your cruel husband
because you found you loved but me,
And then you lied before the jury
and they blamed me for your sins, my Hanna Lee.
Chorus
Down at the jail on hangin' mornin',
I heard you tell them you had lied.
Your dusty eyes were soft and glowin'
and I saw you hang your head and cry.
High, high, high is the gallows.
(Yeah, and it's long) long as the rope that waits for me.
High as the gallows.
When they hang my lovin' darlin', Hannah Lee.

go to http://users2.ev1.net/~smyth/linernotes/thesongs/HanaLee.htm for more details.
:)

2006-10-24T22:05:00.000+08:00

WOAH!! school is going to end on thursday!

pics during staffroom r(a)

nathan hartono singing

our two MCs. they kept on changing clothes

the teachers had a band. it wasnt that bad.

will upload more pics next time

2006-10-21T20:47:00.000+08:00

STAFFROOM R(A) YESTERDAY.

it was so hilarious. the teachers really practised very hard. i never knew they could sing or play the drums, bass guitar and the electric guitar. quite cool. i don't even have the chance to learn any of these instruments. and the modelling thing. CATWALKING. lol. the whole audi was like cheering SO loud until my eardrums nearly burst. screaming too.

it was just crazy. i didnt win anything. but they read out two ticket numbers that were so close to mine. A0578 and A0585. MINE WAS A0575. GRRRRRRR. i wonder who won the dinner date with miss kon. haha
and claire was paraniod over her shoes. i don't know who accidentally stepped on it and she screamed at her.

guess that is what everyone does when u get new things.

mapling now.

2006-10-19T21:08:00.000+08:00

GOT BACK CHINESE, 69, B3

AHHHHH!!!

i can't believe i got B3 for chinese. dropped so much compared to CA1,CA2,CA3 and CA4. GONNA WORK HARD FOR NEXT YEAR.

Staffroom R(A) tmrw!! YAY!!
Holidays in 1 week's time! What am I going to do during the 2 months break? Study? NO WAY. But got chinese homework. have to read chinese storybook, do a zhouji and jianbao. i havent even started on the storybook yet. haha :) i think i should start next week. the earlier i finish, the more time i have to enjoy. NEXT YEAR STREAMING!!!

2006-10-18T20:25:00.000+08:00

i almost got every subject back

1. langarts- 66,B3
2. chinese- ?
3. math- 62,B4(HORRIBLE)
4. bio and life science combined- 65,B3(HORRIBLE)
5. chem and physics combined- 65,B3(HORRIBLE)
6. history- 46/80,57.5%,C5(HORRIBLE)
7. geog- 71.5,A2(YAY!!!!)

im very disappointed for bio. For the paper, I got 38/60. WTH. I expected myself to do better
also for MATH, especially MATH. NO A1. grrr. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i expected to do badly for history. i suck at it.
my first time getting A2 for geog. CELEBRATE. haha. just kidding
i hope my chinese would be as good as all the tests.

my stomach is aching from all the sit-ups and back-arches

2006-10-17T21:28:00.000+08:00

woah. i havent posted for so long.

been watching tv

results are okay and not okay. i barely passed history, did not improve much for langarts, did quite badly for bio. im most satisfied with chem. at least i got an A2. i missed 0.5 marks to A1. GRRRR. claire and eshyen should be coming to FMC this week. OMG. then it will be so noisy. training has started. stoopid haze, i don't think i can run on thursday if the haze continues to be like this. when will indonesia stop burning down forests?
and im going to die for geog and math

can't wait for the weekends. what should i do? ohyah, im going to toa payoh to visit. going back there reminds me of last year. from 3rd placing, i went down all the way to 7th placing. BADBADBAD. hate that place. mentioning it makes me wanna cry and breakdown again. KENNA, HANNAH AND LYDIA PLS HELP ME NOT TO BREAKDOWN AGAIN. im trying my best to forget the past

there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach

2006-10-11T20:08:00.000+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVER!!

but we are going to get back testpapers on monday. so fast.

hmm.. what should i do?

squash trng starts on monday! run run run run.

went to lydia's house. and almost everything in her room is pink. her clothes, her stuff on her table blahblah.

can't imagine what hannah would say if she looked inside her room.

it was so obvious to tell which one is her bed and which one is her sister's bed. haha.

going to watch tv now!

2006-09-30T19:52:00.000+08:00

i finally got the time to blog

I HATE MUGGING

can't wait till the exams are over.

but aft that must get back testpapers. grrr.

then i will be sad again.

CHURCH TMRW!!!

you don't wear my chains

2006-09-25T20:52:00.000+08:00

CHURCH YESTERDAY
on the way there, there was this guy in the mrt train, listening to his ipod so loud until i could hear it from like 10m away.

worship was good. and the sermon was really meaningful - do not judge people or be biased against those that u dont like. Be fair and impartial.

PRAYPRAYPRAY

bad memories, sadness, depression, failure. pray that we will get over them asap.

THERE IS REALLY SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME
i feel so moody somehow. for no reason i feel so sad. maybe because of saturday. i shouldnt have gone to sports school to watch my sis swim. SWIMMING BRINGS ME BACK TO THOSE DAYS WHEN I STRUGGLED SO MUCH TILL I BROKE DOWN. havent really gotten over it.

i remember every little thing that happened on the 22nd july 2005. i lost everything on that day.

at the cross i bow my knees

2006-09-22T21:00:00.000+08:00

gosh. i found this on my friend's blog.

THINGS I LIKE ABOUT MYSELF
my sparkling eyes
my nice shaped lips.its been commented that it was beautiful by a makeup artist before.haha.she asked if i had a boyfrien and i was like..err...no!!!
my hair. i cut it layered so its curvy and layered.nice
my attitude.i take people's commends very lightly actually
my style of clothes.i have a taste in clothes that i can mix an match my clothes,still look fashionable and i have a new look every week when i go to blackbox!!!
my feet.they're pretty small and they're easy to take care of:)
my nails.they are just so nice shaped actually.easy to cut
my strong fingers.so that i can play the piano well
oh well,its like i am naming everything gd about myself.haha.well practically, everything on me is just nice to me:)everything just seems so perfect:)

OMGOMGOMGOMG. i cant believe that someone would actually put this on her blog. how big can her ego get?
singapore idol finals on sunday. I AM NOT GOING TO WATCH IT. AND I DON'T WISH TO. NOT WORTH IT TO WATCH.

i like the new single of my chemical romance. the title is quite long so i cant really remember it.
can't wait till the EOYs are over!!!

2006-09-20T21:07:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 13TH BIRTHDAY CLAIRE!

even though i havent been talking to you for like 2 weeks, you will still be my good friend(crazy too). the reason why i havent been talking to u or havent been going recess with you, eshyen and fiona because i need to think through some stuff. abt our class's attitude, the way they behave etc. i do have a serious problem too. when i dont really find this particular person reasonable or the person is childish or whatever, i cant bring myself to accept the fact that he/she is like that. im not street smart. i cannot deceive myself and lie to myself that this friend of mine is not irrtating, childish, act-smart blahblahblah. GRRRR.

2 weeks to the EOYs. really scared.

2006-09-16T21:59:00.000+08:00

i havent posted for 4 days.

my blog is going to be dead for a while since i really have to study for the eoys. MUGGGGINGGG. it is nice sometimes but most of the time it isnt.

yesterday, i went for some NTU EEE(electrical eletronic engeering) dinner.
1. we got lost while we were trying to find the restaurant.
2. the food wasnt that nice
3. we reach home at 11pm since there was like an hour jam at the area where suntec city is.
4. they blocked almost the entire place. gosh

it is really the worst day. and i am prepared to get at most 16/25 for the math test. i didnt have time to check through the whole paper. so, in the end, i lost some marks for the rounding off thing as i remembered how to do it last minute. GRRRRR. this test is going to pull my marks down.

singapore kids are not kids

2006-09-12T22:10:00.000+08:00

hello again.

nth much today, except for swimming pe. we had to look for diane's contact lenses. and i dont even know how contact lenses look like.

22 days to the eoys. 3 more weeks. and i havent studied. well, i studied for quite a few subjects alr. except for like 3 or 4 of them.

chinese oral tmrw.

2006-09-10T21:33:00.000+08:00

sherlynn came over to play tennis with me!! haha. so sad it rained and she also had to go for a concert with her sis.

during bible study today, we were eating and discussing at the same time. AND STEPHY WAS NOT THERE. i think she doesnt want her two packets of iced milo. lol

amelea came back today!! but she only gave us the FOOD. they were GOOD. got CRACKERS, CADBURY CHOCOLATE and GUMMY. so the whole grp ate and ate. especially clare. she kept on eating the crackers and licking her fingers. SHE HAD VERY VERY LONG NAILS. AND SHE POLISHED IT. gosh

i shall continue doing the rest of my history hw.

2006-09-07T21:16:00.000+08:00

3 more days till the hols are over.

big surprise tomorrow! especially for the people joining the APSC championships. haha. you'll see.

oh yah btw, what is liberal arts? my friend is studying that in university. never heard of it before.

crampcrampcramp! URGH. no trng for like 1 month! i better make use of this one month break to study and also work on my strokes. my strokes are really screwed. i hope i can get into top five.
First: Klarrisa(duh)
Second: Rachel/Elena
Third:Elena/Rachel
Fourth:Wanning?
Fifth: Kelly

as you can see, there is no more space for me. so i really need to train hard and train smart.

just changed blogskin!

2006-09-06T22:22:00.000+08:00

I LOST

im not going back to toa payoh to play anymore. after getting "kicked out". i need to work harder. i wanna get into top 5 and play at school nats next year. TO PROVE TO MRS ELAINE CHAN THAT I CAN DO IT. how dare she look down on me. SHE IS NOT GOING TO MAKE ME SWIM AGAIN.

mentioning her makes my blood boil.

AND MY WEIGHT ISNT GOING DOWN. IT IS STILL THE SAME. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO CUT OFF 2KG IN TWO WEEKS? mrs elaine chan again

i never knew that she can be so cunning

2006-09-03T20:10:00.000+08:00

i havent posted for like 3 days.

trying to lose weight but i cant. people keep on telling me it is muscle weight so there is nth to lose. like real, you know im 65kg? that is SUPER heavy. pls dont tell me it is muscle weight again. like i have so much muscles.

now, i am having one portion of carbo a day, then the rest is either dont eat or just have fruits and vegetables.

bored, dunno what to do

better finish reading the chinese storybook that the school asked us to buy.

i am SO fat.

2006-08-31T16:29:00.000+08:00

I AM PLAYING AGAINST MAO SHI YEN.

she is mao shi hui's sis i think. name so similar. rach told me she is PRODED. like duh, she is mao shi hui's sis. there are genes you know. she won ruth 2-1. like wth?? why did she join novice? maybe she wants an easy win. sheesh. choex told her sis that mao shi yen joined novice and her response was," SHE JOINED NOVICE?????!!!!!!" haha. ruth and her cheena accent. i wonder how is she going to pass oral.

when me, elena and some other ppl were at macs(kap), zhaochen found a fish bone in her burger. i never knew that burgers had fishbones. AND ZHAOCHEN AT FIRST DECIDED TO GIVE US A TREAT. how kind of her. i still remember how money-minded she was. SHE IS STILL. after she bought the stuff, she said," I DECIDED NOT TO TREAT YOU PEOPLE. SO LATER, PLEASE PAY ME." what a nice friend.

okay, i gtg do home work now.

34 DAYS TO EOYS.

2006-08-29T21:47:00.000+08:00

its been 3 days since i updated.

nth much today. i just felt super pissed with the whole class. dont know why. i sometimes really need to cool myself down. i feel so irritated these few days.

i will not talk abt the bad things that happened today. during swimming pe. it really sucks and it makes me wanna cry.

Commendations Award Ceremony tomorrow

always and forever

2006-08-26T22:13:00.000+08:00

i dont know what to say.

go to blogskins.com and search lienieledam

rate them pls!! IT IS MINE! HAHA.

some more pics

not that nice from afar

a close up pic with me.claire.eshyen

2006-08-25T21:04:00.000+08:00

kenna and lydia acting.. emm.. like? what do you think?

I know i look horrible. me.claire.eshyen.

the state of our class. i got used to it after such a long time

2006-08-24T16:02:00.000+08:00

44 days to eoys!

AHHH!! that is like 1 month? minus away all the hols. studystudystudy.

today, when i was on the way home, passed by the audi, i saw adele and another girl trying to strangle each other with both of their ties. i was like thinking," what in the world are you doing?" then after that, they were coughing and choking. STOOPID.

HISTORY TEST was... emm.. ok? no comments.

MY LEGS ARE ACHING!

2006-08-23T21:43:00.000+08:00

MY LEGS FEEL LIKE JELLY.

fun run. yeah it was fun to watch. not fun to do. at least i tried my best!! dont want to be so negative. The hols are finally coming! actually, it isnt really a time to celebrate since the eoys are coming REALLY soon. CAC is coming soon. my fourth time listening to the guest-of-honour speak. Hope it isn't going to be boring. 2004's CAC guest-of-honour was... *yawn*. I liked the 2003 CAC. The speach was nice. I think the guest-of-honour was the director of SSS. I could actually remember.

I seriously cannot see what is on a topographic map. Mrs Chong was telling us how to do it but i just couldn't see! How? I just passed Geog by 3 marks! I need to buck up.

where'd you go

2006-08-21T17:30:00.000+08:00

MUGGING

study and study and study. I was supposed to go for trng today but then im really scared that my knee will be painful again. So, i will be taking a short break.

MY DAD IS FINALLY GETTING BIRKENSTOCK FOR THE WHOLE FAMILY!! YAY!
and i went out with my mum yesterday, i bought this white long-sleeve for $20. i dunno whether that is cheap or not.

swimming pe tmrw. i'll be swimming laps again. along with clarinda. why is it only both of us?

I'm writing you a symphony of sound

2006-08-20T19:26:00.000+08:00

PISSED

i have a 80% chance of not being able to play squash anymore.
_____________________________________________________________________

reasons:

1. I have this knee problem which keeps on acting up if I put too much pressure on it.
2. My parents STRONGLY think that squash is a super dead sport.
3. They say I am too fat to be a squashie
- I know I am fat
- But I am desperately trying to lose weight
- I will not eat any more food that contains carbohydrates, fats or anything that can make me
fat
4. They think that I can never be a good squash player
- I don't know why they have this kind of mentallity, so negative.
5. They want me to go back to swimming
- I WILL NEVER EVER EVER GO BACK TO SWIMMING NO MATTER WHAT.

alhsdjasjvi(#((*$($*$)kdjfdikkv&^^)%^%)*(#

1 quarter fish, 3 quarter duck.
that sounds so wrong. URGH
____________________________________________________________________

_____ cried again. After so long, i thought she cooled down already.
Surprisely, I think she recalled what happened. Somehow, dunno how.
MAY THE LORD BE WITH HER NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS

prayer really changes things

2006-08-18T18:10:00.000+08:00

E.O.Y ARE COMING SOON

i cant believe the year just passed by so fast. in 4 weeks time, it is the eoy. and after that, we get back our testpapers. THAT IS THE SCARIEST PART FOR ME. getting back results. im so afraid that i wouldnt do well. im especially worried for ENGLISH, LIT, GEOG AND HISTORY. Those are my weakest subjects and the marks of those subjects fluctuate alot. It goes up and down everytime.

I NEED TO GET AN A1 FOR CHINESE. i just need 3 marks more and i get an A1. i will study really hard until my overall average is above 70. im currently 70 borderline. ALWAYS.

ca1:70
ca2:69.7
ca3:68.9
average for the 3 CAs:69.5

I DON'T THINK THAT IS GOOD FOR SEC1
____________________________________________________________________

NEXT TOPIC

i injured my knee again. it is wrapped in a bandage now AGAIN.
hope i can train properly on monday.
AND I SERIOUSLY NEED TO LOOSE WEIGHT

my dad just said that my knee injury is caused indirectly by my body weight.
"you are too BIG to run around the court, so... blah and blah and blah"
WHAT EVER

no way am i going to change sport. unfortunately, my dad asked me to take up tennis because
1. he thinks that squash is a DEAD SPORT(so not true)
2. i'm too heavy to be quick enough to move around the court(i know im fat but then i can always try means and ways to lose weight)
3. he thinks that tennis is SUITABLE for me(he says that my "figure" suits tennis well)
4.he somehow DOES NOT LIKE SQUASH so i have to not like it(what logic is that?)
5.he assumes that if i play tennis, i would not get any injuries and my thighs would not be so big.(my thighs are alr SO HUGE and i have NO IDEA how to make it smaller, maybe liposuction[spelling?])

thats all the reasons that i can currently think of. there should be somemore coming.

bye

2006-08-15T21:29:00.000+08:00

I GOT BACK MY CA3 RESULTS TODAY.

freaky.

i can hardly remember what i got. average 68 ++.
HORRIBLE. i know it is.

GEOG. urghh. it sucks. i didnt study anything from textbook.
so going to die.

hmm... i JUST passed geog(C6). im only in sec1 and i got a C6 alr.
very professional.

gotta go back and try to study for bio, math and history. actually there is also lit but then i dont know how to study lit since i only have to read the book.

better is one day in your courts, better is one day in your house

2006-08-14T20:11:00.000+08:00

MY BRAIN IS DYING

just finshed watching the last episode of POINT OF NO RETURN. its a super nice drama serial. even though i have watched it like 3 times, it is still so touching

tianci: have you found your true love?
shuangxi: yes
tianci: since you have found your true love, why arent both of you together?
shuangxi: because he has ______( i forgot what the subtitle said here) rejected me
tianci: will you give him a chance if he repents and regrets what he did?
shuangxi: yes
tianci: will you forgive him if he kneels before you?
shuangxi: yes tianci kneels before her
tianci: dont go, please?
shuangxi: yes

then after this touching scene, they lived happily ever after

see zhijing? you had better stop stoning in chapel.

WOAH. i actually remembered. hmm..
i better get back to mugging for geog and lit tmrw.

ta

2006-08-12T20:30:00.000+08:00

i have you breathing down my neck

dark blue by jack's mannequin

LOVE THIS SONG. scroll down and you can listen to it.

i havent sold any mooncakes yet. they are too expensive. it has been the same for so long. unfortunatley.

anyone got deja-vu by jay-z and beyonce? i want that song!!!

i met beulah today. lol. at beauty world centre.
got geog, math, bio, lit, chem, chinese to study for!!! ARGH!

2006-08-08T21:28:00.000+08:00

WHO WANTS TO BUY MOONCAKES?

and i wanna go for planetshakers concert!!!!

2006-08-07T21:45:00.000+08:00

just changed blogskin.

I LIKE IT. how abt you?

training today. it was alrite. choe-x and wanning were speaking cantonese and hokkien. wanning teaching her the meaning of certain words. I DONT UNDERSTAND.

bored again. why am i bored everytime?

history and math one after another. that is BAD. hate mondays

i miss those times

2006-08-06T20:55:00.000+08:00

WOAH

im seriously very bored. got nth to do.

hmm... church today.

CLARE DIDINT COME AGAIN. she seems fine now. after so many things happening. i really pity her. how evil can guys get?
and she owes our whole group ICE MILO. haha. stephy asked her for it. too bad she is only coming back in SEPTEMBER. i dont want to wait so long. it is very fun with her around. all the jokes shooting out of her mouth. heehee :)

my skin is peeling!!! MY RACKET GRIP IS TOO ROUGH. im so random.

hope i can train properly tmrw. with the state of my knee. i cant force myself too hard though.

ta

2006-08-04T21:29:00.000+08:00

songs of the day:
rooftop by lostprophets
boston by augustana

IM BORED

and im flooded with homework. argh

i havent been updating. and hannah lee(1H) typed some crap on my tagboard. too bored during com studies huh?
i feel so slack. i somehow cant motivate myself.
stuck

my knee is finally okay!! i can go trng on monday!! woohoo!! this is SO MUCH BETTER than going swimming trng. i wouldnt want to go forever if i had an injury.
hope my knee will be okay for the rest of the year. i dont want to go to the doctor again.
i'll have to wear a knee guard though. only on my right knee. weird.

and i really need to clear up my room. it is darn messy.

shoots, there is history on monday rite???

2006-07-31T20:27:00.000+08:00

WOAH

i havent updated for 4 days. thats alot to me.

i think my dad is going to get another laptop. HP pavillion(i think). it is $1599. that is SUPER cheap for HP. but the thing is that it is only for STUDENTS. UNI/POLY STUDENTS. urgh, that is the irritating part. my cuz is in UNI but then she is SUPER SUPER hard to contact. dunno where she go. the desktop that we currently have is... *&$*jsdfohhg(*#$*jhhkshg.

there is seriously something wrong with it. it shuts down BY ITSELF. AT LEAST 3 TIMES. imagine half way when u are doing IMPORTANT stuff. then u would have to re-do the whole thing. that sucks

AND IT IS 5 YEARS OLD.

I INJURED MY RIGHT KNEE. during training.
at the last set of 6 point run, suddenly, i felt a stinging pain on my knee. then i screwed up in everything after that. especially when doing backhand. super painful. i couldnt do boasts properly(not the boast that everyone thinks of). Play games also cannot play properly.
SO.. im going to see a doctor tmrw. if not it will get worse. and im not going for swimming P.E. heehee.

IM BORED.. should i change my blogskin?

2006-07-27T20:17:00.000+08:00

my second post of the day.

i feel so angry

is money really everything in the world?

guess what, i asked whether i could go for from eve to mary.

her response," do you think we are printing money? later your dad owe people so much money until one day, he might even commit suicide!! worse still, if he does, he won't leave us with a single cent!!"

WTF

i feel like screaming and shouting

kjashdkgkdejnvjnkvs9*&*&$&*&$(*#^$(^*&(^*^#(*

URGH

so angry.
she still thinks that money can bring everything.
as if u cant live on without any money.

HATE IT

2006-07-27T10:39:00.000+08:00

E LEARNING

this week is so slack.

nothing to do except for work and work and work...

something is really wrong with me.
i cant play squash properly.
everyone has been beating me in every game i played.
i lost to someone that i used to win last time.
im getting fatter and fatter.
my physical has been deproving
i cant run as fast as i used to.
even gloria has caught up with me, and elena too.
im trying very hard to get into top five.
but there are only four places left since klarrisa is DEFINITELY first in position.

sighsighsigh.

I NEED A BIG CHANGE.
attitude, mentallity, everything

2006-07-25T21:09:00.000+08:00

BORING

founder's day. for the 7th time. i cant believe i have been attending founder's day for 7 times alr. WTH
but i ponned once in p5, so that makes it 6 times. i still cannot believe it.

stood outside 2I. we kept on moving though. TO LET THE PRIMARY SCHOOL PEOPLE HAVE ENOUGH SPACE. stupid reason. why do they have so many people?

move and move and move. me and claire were "AIMING" to stand in front of the class door. so that we would not suffer in the crowd of like 100 over ppl( they really breathe out ALOT of carbon dioxide, so they must have breathed in ALOT of oxygen too. -_-")

it was REALLY COMFORTABLE standing in the midst of SO LITTLE PEOPLE. sense the sarcasm in the air. OOO so shocking. LoL

march and march and march. I WILL NOT MARCH EVEN IF THEY PAID ME TO.

boredboredbored!!
i took this from a guy's blog
i like. cutegirls. hotgirls. GURLS. some girls. some guys. attitude.
i don't like. playboyz. playgirlz. some girls. some guys. attitude.

SUPER SUPER SUPER SUPER DESPO.
why is everyone so desperate?

2006-07-23T16:12:00.000+08:00

amanda,sher and me

MGSWIMTEAM06-- my last year

i think we were looking at the timings. ooo. SO SHOCKED

COOL TROPHIES. I DIDNT get one though :(

hmm.. nth today

went to church. all the sad things going through my mind when it comes to church.

i hope _____ can get over it. i really pray that _____ can stay strong. all the emotions...

YOU MUST STAY STRONG!!

2006-07-21T22:17:00.000+08:00

slack again.

tired.

will post tmrw. along with the pics.

3 tuitions. i dont know how am i going to survive.

looking at thoses pictures, all the memories are bouncing back on me.

i dont wanna see him. i dont want him to exist.

ALL THE ANGER AND HATRED IN ME

2006-07-18T17:15:00.000+08:00

nothing to post today.

slacking again. drfiting further away from the water.
you wont be seeing me anymore. it's time to say goodbye.
take care everyone!! it's over for me

2006-07-15T22:50:00.001+08:00

start time: 10.24.09pm 15july '06.
victim of quiz: madeleine here i goe!1oo questions. sighs. pray i don't pick youu.
1. full name: madeleine ashley lie yu hua
2. name backwards: auh uy eil yelhsa enieledam
3. were you named after anyone: madeleine albright[u dont know who is this]
4. meaning of name: dunno?
5. nick name: maddy
6. screen name: lienieledam/the sweetness will not be concerned with me/
7. date of birth: 5 march 1993
8. place of birth: nuh of singapore.
9. nationality: singaporean.
10. current location: my study table
11. phone type: nokia 7360
12. religion: christian.
13. height: 163.5cm
14. weight: HIGHLY CONFIDENTIAL
15. shoe size:us 9, uk 41[i feel so detailed]
16. hair colour: [brown is due to chlorine.]black with streaks of brown.
17. eye colour: black.
18. what do you look like: [how to answer!?]ehh. me. myself. i.
19. innie or outie: innie.
20. righty, lefty, or ambidextrous: right.
21. gay, straight, bi, or other? [what type of question is this?] straight.
22. best friends: frens from mg and apsc.
23. best friend you trust the most: [hmm.] no one in particular.
24. favourite pals: [isn't this the same as question 22?]
25. best friends of the opposite sex: i dont really know.
26. best buddies: [same as ques 22, 24 and 25?]
27. boyfriend or girlfriend: none.
28. crush: none.
29. parents: humans.
30. worst enemy: [if its ur worst enemy, you won't say right?]
31. favorite on-line guys: charles: funny nicks.
32. favorite on-line girls: same as 26.
33. funniest friend: serene, claire jean yeo, clarrisa poh
34. craziest friend: serene[duhh]
36. loudest friend: hmm.. alot of ppl
WHERE DID QUESTION 35 GOE?!
37. person you cry with: me.myself.i
38. any sisters: [duhh.] yupp.
39. any brothers: nahh.
40. any pets: nahh.
41. a disease: yupp. a laughing disease i get whenever serene laughs.
42. a pager: [outdated.duhh!] nahh.
43. a personal phone line: [handphone lar!] duhh.
44. a cell phone: [handphone lar! stupid question.]
45. a lava lamp: [ehh?] whats that?
46. a pool or hot tub: pool when the weather is hot and hot tub when the weather is cold(like kunming)
47. a car:IM THIRTEEN. I ONLY KNOW HOW TO DRIVE BUMPER CARS
48. personality: ask someone else abt me
49. drivers licence: refer to ques 47.
50. car or one you want: GREEN VOLKSWAGEN. RED FERRARI
51. own room: [hehheh.] yupp.
52. gotton lost: i dont really get lost. my right brain is working well
53. school: [currently.] mg.
54. bed: i dont know what size. it was bought from america
55. relationship with your parents: dunno?
56. believe in yourself: never.
57. do you believe in love at first sight? yes and no
58. consider yourself a good listener: no way. im a lousy listener.
59. it just died: i dun get this.
60. get along with your parents: this question again
61. save your e-mail conversations: nope. don't bother to.
62. pray: sometimes
63. believe in reincarnation:no
64. like to make fun of people: im not that evil, am i?
65. like to talk on the phone: no one ever calls me
66. want to get married: [hmm.] haven't thought that far yet.
67. like to drive: [refer to ques 49.]
68. get motion sickness: when i read in the car.
69. eat the stems of broccoli: duhh. i like veggies!!
70. eat chicken fingers with a fork: huh?
71. dream in color: i hardly dream
72. type with your fingers on home row: nope
73. sleep with a stuffed animal: they get thrown off the bed
74. right next to you: the wall and curtain
75. on the walls of your room: paint. and dirt.
76. on your mouse pad: i dont have a mouse pad
77. your dream car: go back up to read
78. your dream date: dunno? generations change
79. your dream honeymoon spot: ENGLAND
80. your dream husband or wife: hmmm...
81. your bedtime: ranges between 10.30 to 11.30
82. under your bed: dust
83. the single most important question: i dont have one
84. your bad time of the day: during history lesson in school
85. your worst fears: lots of them
86. the weather is: im in a air-con room
87. the time: 10.41.15pm
88. the date: 15 July 2006
89 .the best trick you ever played on someone: cant remember
90. got lost: nope
91. theme song: who i am hates who i've been by relient k
92. the hardest thing about growing up: getting fat
93. your funniest experience: the farmer
94. your scariest moment: before the rgs interview
95. the silliest thing you've said: so many of them
96. the funniest or most desperate thing you've done to get the attention of the opposite sex : ppl force me to do stupid stuff
97. the scariest thing that's ever happened while with your friend(s): no experience of this.
98. the worst feeling in the world: ppl telling me that im stupid and useless etc
99. the best feeling in the world: being all alone with no one disturbing me
100. 5 people to do this quiz: jasmine chua, belicia yong, lee e shyen, zi wei and bernice

2006-07-15T22:50:00.000+08:00

2006-07-15T21:05:00.000+08:00

I feel so lazy to post.

NO TESTS THIS WEEK. but i bet there will be spring tests.

Nothing happened. I JUST WANNA KNOW HOW TO LOSE 10 KG IN ONE MONTH. I need to be skinnier!! I hate to hear my parents telling me EVERYDAY that I am fat and heavy. My dad says." Look how big your butt is." I'm like thinking," It is a priviledge to have a big butt." My mum says," Look how big your thighs are." Again I am thinking," I am proud to have big thighs as I stand out from the crowd."

I know they telling me all this for my own good. So that I won't get any fatter. But isn't saying this EVERYDAY too much?

From now onwards, I MUST go running everyday, not eat anything that has carbohydrates, not eat meat, eat more veggies and exercise more. I feel like I am turning into a vegetarian. I don't want to actually.

NO MORE SWIMMING FROM NOW ONWARDS!!! YAY!! <3

2006-07-13T15:31:00.000+08:00

INTERSCHOOL SWIMMING IS OVER!

thats sherlynn teo and me. i was trying figure out how to put on the flash for the cam. i finally got it in the end. just press all the buttons and see which one is the flash. i will upload more pics tmrw. I AM GETTING THE LAPTOP TODAY!! YAY!

2006-07-09T21:01:00.000+08:00

hmm...

what do i need to say today?

italy and france tmrw. i dont know which team will win. i am not supporting any of them. ENGLAND GOT OUT. thats like quite a long time ago.

im watching wimbeldon rite now. I WANT NADAL TO WIN. federer looks so snobbish.
MAURESMO WON. nnnnnnnnooooooooo. dont like her. justine henin-hardenne lost. IM SAD. haha. im a bit crazy.

I FINALLY GOT MY RACKET!! N-CODE120. it was on sale. so i bought it. it looks so white now.

went to taka with claire, fiona and e shyen. we were crapping like siao. AND SMSING SOMEONE TOO. IT WAS FREAKY. whenever claire's phone had a vibration, all of us would just keep quiet. hehe :)

IM FAT.

2006-07-06T17:02:00.000+08:00

i havent typed out any posts for such a long time.

i didnt get into finals for any of my events. that proves how slow i am. it is finally over. i need not swim anymore.

but i'll swim for biathlons. haha. i will only swim for that. then someone will run for me. my running sucks too. im slower than rachel choe. her legs are fast and swift. i only have the stamina.

come to think of it, i wonder how it feels like to be not a swimmer anymore. maybe im just so used to it. 7 years of that kind of life. maybe i can take up to 14 years to adjust. nah. just kiddin' :)

im going to CCMC for church this sunday. got that math thing to do so have to meet up with frens at school. i have a concert tmrw and another one next friday. so much stuff to go for.

nothing much today. went back to school just to do math test after the competition. it was okay. except that im not so sure abt the number patterns thingy. i cant seem to get it right for some reason.

goodbye to my old self. i am not going to be soaked again. well, sometimes i will.

2006-07-05T19:27:00.000+08:00

Miss Swan at the ATM

HELLO? HELLO? COME ON I NEED THE MONEY..

2006-07-05T19:26:00.000+08:00

Miss Swan at a gay bar

this is super sick and hilarious

2006-07-05T19:25:00.000+08:00

Miss Swan at the customs

this is so retarded. STAND BEHIND THE BLUE LINE

2006-07-05T19:24:00.000+08:00

Miss Swan At Starbucks

this is stupid..

2006-07-01T13:32:00.000+08:00

Miss Swan Eyewitness

He look... like a ma(a)n!

2006-07-01T13:31:00.000+08:00

Miss Swan On Plane

MISS SWAN: With a little bit of bacon. haha

2006-06-30T19:34:00.000+08:00

I AM NOT MYSELF TODAY. I FEEL SO PISSED(not with anyone)

My parents just lectured me AGAIN. I feel as if I can't seem to do anything. Everything looks like it is not right, not the way I expected it to be. Maybe God wants me to change, He wants a different lifestyle for me. I need an attitude adjustment. There is something deep down inside me that doesn't want to come out. I feel so trapped, so insecure, so not myself.

Sometimes when I am blogging, I can cry when typing on the keyboard. All those unpleasant happenings, every little memory, each single moment of happiness, are all stuck inside my head. Happy stuff, it is possible for me to forget it. Not happy stuff, it so happens that I can recall and imagine myself during that point of unhappiness. It is SO hard to throw away all bad things. It is so easy to forget good things. I don't like the feeling of being hated. Especially by someone that had once loved you the most.

What a thing can love be. Being loved just feels so nice, so...

2006-06-28T21:33:00.000+08:00

my blog is so dead.

havent been updating. as eshyen wants to read my blog, i shall post abt what happened yesterday and today.

yesterday.. hmm.. had school then trng.. i think serene went crazy yesterday. she kept on laughing until she had to swim breaststroke with such loud breathing sounds. Sherlynn and me were talking then we suddenly just heard someone breathing so loudly. In the end it was serene(as expected). she has the weirdiest and funniest laughter of all. If she starts laughing, all of us would just start laughing too. haha. we kinda crazy too. then after that was the free set. 16 by 100. i HATE 100s. i can end up doing 1600m instead of 16 by 100. Which means i just do the whole set without stopping for a break. As usual, it was on 1.30, and i could only have at most 5 to 8 seconds break. But still, at least i could stop for a while. After the whole thing, jiao lian asked serene to do an extra one. Serene replied her,"WHY?!" Then jiao lian started following her,"WHY?!(Y) WHY?(Y)" As jiao lian is from china, she couldnt say it properly. And everyone started laughing their heads off, including me. It was really funny the way she said it. haha. :)

AT THE HOSPITAL

I went to the hospital for my bcak check-up. First, i went to register and i got a queue number. Then they asked me to go and take height and weight. I SHRUNK! My height became 163.5 instead of 165. URGH. How can that happen? I WILL NEVER TELL YOU MY WEIGHT. HIGHLY CONFIDENTIAL. haha. After that, i went to check my back. It improved but i still had to go for an x-ray. After taking the x-ray, i went back to the doctor. GUESS WHAT THE DOCTOR SAID. She said that i have reached full maturity and would not grow anymore. So this will be my height for the future. And i dont think i would change.

TODAY

I thought what i did in the past. Now i really regret it. Why did i like ahem ahem? I was really stoopid and foolish. Cant believe i actually had such feelings. Now, i am still trying to forget abt him, almost done with it. Just a few more weeks, and i would totally forget abt him.
Claire went crazy today. Claire, Fiona, EShyen and me were laughing like mad ppl during recess. We took the long way to get back to our class since there was abt 20 minutes left. We talked a whole load a crap and even more crap.
My event for school nats is before 1500m free and 400im!! i'll have to wait like 1 hour before my event. Watching 1500m free can make me fall alseep. SO LONG. URGH!

i feel like...

2006-06-25T16:41:00.000+08:00

THIS IS CRAZY.

school is officially starting tmrw. i dont know what am i gonna do. first day of school and i have history lesson. i am going to fall asleep for sure during history. well, that is what always happens to me whenever the lessons are super boring. but sometimes, u cant afford to.

9 MORE DAYS TO INTERSCHOOL

i am super scared. i trained for only two weeks!! u know that is super short to train for a major major competition? URGH. i dont know what am i gonna do!! i am swimming in the same heats as CHRISELLE KOH for 200im. she is SUPER fast. and i am gonna die for 200 free. i changed stroke- from breaststroke to im(i think). i cant improve my breaststroke anymore so i decided to change for some reason. its kinda boring doing the same stroke since the beginning of p4 till the end of p6. that's like 2 years doing the same stroke! gosh, i cant imagine. i still like my last year's JAG 200 breaststroke the best. i got 4th fot that. hehe. made it to B timing. and selena tan won me by just 2 SECONDS. i could have gotten third. i didnt sprint at the end. selena tan did. unfortunately, i cant go back to my old self.

2006-06-24T22:09:00.000+08:00

SCHOOL IS STARTING SOON. AND SCHOOL NATS IS DRAWING NEARER AND NEARER(swimming).

this totally sucks. im swimming 200 im and 200 free and my stamina is like so bad. i trained for only two weeks!! and the last week is tapering. shucks. this is so screwed. HAPPY BIRTHDAY RUTH!! i know it is kinda late for me to tell ruth this. i realised it was her birthday from friendster only. yah im outdated. I CANT GO SQUASH TRNG THIS WHOLE WEEK!! gotta train for swimming. hope i can do my pb(IM= 2.58, FREE=2.34) well, that was like last year. so i dont think i can do it. unless there is a miracle. i do believe in miracles actually, even though there's no miracle happening to me(im not that lucky). KEEPING UP WITH THE WORLD CUP IS SO STRESSFUL. so many teams. i can only recognise england players. haha. maybe i have been watching too much of ENGLISH PREMIER LEAGUE. that's why im super blurr when it comes to other players.

okay. church tmrw. im skipping centralised trng for church. IT IS WORTH IT. i dont wanna see my coach's horrible face.

TELL THE WORLD THAT JESUS LIVES!<3

2006-06-20T11:40:00.000+08:00

heyhey.. i think you ppl out there must highlight the words to see what im typing here. im sorry for that.
okay! school is starting really soon. i dont wanna go back. it gives me a lot of stress. especially the tests and homework.
i think im quitting swimming after interschool. not sure abt that yet. i dragged this quitting thing for quite sometime alr. so maybe its the right time for me to talk abt it again? i dont really know.
GUESS WHAT HAPPENED DURING TRAINING YESTERDAY:
MY RACKET CRACKED!! hehe. i wont tell you the whole entire thing. its quite a pain to the eye.
hmm... what is happening today? let me see. i got swimming trng in the aft(dont wanna go). i need to finish my hw by thurs!! i got 2 projects to do and a whole set of math ws. but the math ws is a waste of time as the answers are on the net. so im just gonna copy and paste. thats the typical me. haha.
INTERSCHOOL IS COMING SOON!! in abt like 2 weeks, im competing against all the super duper fast ppl. i dont think i would get into the finals. got so many national swimmers competing and sec1s are competing with the sec2s so it is really unfair.
I guess there is nth left to say?

2006-06-18T15:27:00.000+08:00

ok.. this is my new blogskin. it looks kinda weird. shucks. school nats is coming really soon. i dont wanna swim. i havent been trng!! its like i started trng only this week. i feel so slack!! and jiao lian is so mean!! during 20*50 comp 25fast,25slow, i had to do 20*50 ALL FAST. its like so darn tiring and i look so stupid in front of everyone. everybody else is like going super slow after 25 and i am still trying my best to move forward. everyone else isnt panting while i was. everytime when everyone is going slow, i have to sprint like crazy. urgh. its just so unfair.